“Assigned, for Disillusion” (2013)
From the melancholia of “Lovelorn”, we came to despair and disillusion of “Assigned, for Disillusion”. The feelings that all your life is only failures and the fact that you lost your youth and all that you believed in. You wake up, lonely facing Disillusion and Despair.
…when all is failure, only remains Disillusion…
These songs were written between 2009 and 2011. The first one was Linxya, and the last one was “Blondestar” in february 2011.
Linxya
Linxya
Music and lyrics written by Alexis B.
Towards my destiny? Joining divine beauty
Chains circle my hands; Stretched from each side
Staring afar, the void; Wind caressing my eyes
My regard got lost; In the deep blue sea
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Save me
Don’t let me sink
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I wait your soul
Rise your eyes to me
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My sacrificed soul; Abandon to the flood
Filling me with coldness; With insistent wavering
Complete my destiny; The only means to forget
My turned down glance; Saddened
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Bless me
So let me sink
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I’m close to dive
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Let me drown in the waves
I must die for loving you
Let me drown in the waves
I must die for your love
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I wait your soul
Rise your eyes to me
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Let me drown in the waves
I must die for loving you
Let me drown in the waves
Let me drown in the waves
January 2011
Blondestar
Blondestar
Music written by Alexis B & Claudia M. Lyrics written by Alexis B.
The world appears shyly ahead of my steps.
Surrounded by misty smoke, Rounded by a weak light.
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Feeling my hours coming, I pace
Perceive this shade being more insistent.
Revealing a thin and esthetic shape.
These of a lady, leaving off to obscurity.
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I go on for losing myself
In obscurity’s meanders
My senses in a flutter, I’m getting closer
Outstripping me once more.
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I feel the fear
Streaming on my visage
But I keep on
Never mind the way out.
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I feel her so close to me, my hand could touch her body
Nothing, the light’s out
An idea of despair fills my heart.
Will I see her again?
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Will I see you again?
Will I see her again?
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Opening my eyes, the world has fall
Insistence, my ruin, I dreamed her for so long.
The Blondestar has gone, taking her light
So clear and living. To other fate.
September 2011
Distained Perfection
Distained Perfection
Music and lyrics written by Alexis B.
The subtlety of your body – This waving passion, forlorn
Your seduction gleams – Immersed through your light
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The lace of your charm – So Hypnotic drops
Then, disdain – What I represent, a dying spark
My disillusion’s blouse – Obstructing the scorn
Holding my voice – To infinity
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So red lips
Your Blonde hair,
Sweet fencenet, Perfection
The lace, heels,
Your seduction
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Inside, Confusion, contradiction
Baffled love, withheld her ray
I tried, tried to be, to assume myself
Believe what I couldn’t be now
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I want to be like you
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Denying this conception – Wanting your perfection
Never to attain – cursed for life
I will never be – So distain on me
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Inside, Confusion, contradiction
Baffled love, withheld her ray
I tried, tried to be, to assume myself
Believe what I couldn’t be now
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Denying this conception – Wanting your perfection
Never to attain – cursed for life
I will never be – So distain on me
June 2011
Unveiled Illusion
Unveiled Illusion
Music and lyrics written by Alexis B.
So sweet shape – Spinning around me
Through this night – To wasting dawn
You touched my dreams – Surrounded by your perfume
Inebriated by your glance
Tangled in this veil – veil of illusion
Deafened by this electric presence
So poisonous
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Evaporating in my memories
Numb by this vision
I follow you
Blinded by your sharpened beauty
Drifting to the tenderness
Of your trembling hands
Drowned in your kiss
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Take me in your arms
Tight me to oblivion
Let me feel your love
Forever
Take me in your arms
Dampen down my fear
Make me swirling
Forever
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So slashing beauty – Lacerate my life
Please love me this night
Plant your bitterness – Under my skin
Burn my entire life
And bring me to you
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Take me in your arms
Tight me to oblivion
Let me feel your love
Forever
Take me in your arms
Dampen down my fear
Make me swirling
Forever
January 2012
Promised to Failure
Promised to Failure
Music and lyrics written by Alexis B.
Can’t find what I’m looking for
Can’t planned myself in future
Every day spent bring me closer, to failure
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I’m looking for the bride
My beloved saviour
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Can’t keep on that way
I probably will forsake
Before it remains nothing to me
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I’m looking for the bride
My beloved saviour
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Heart wasted by so many sores
Appeared from the past, the pain stay the same
I always be lucky less
And so less now
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Bruised by solitude and indifference
I look like nothing yet, deformed!
Though I promise to never abandon you
I’m not sure I could hold this promise
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I dream to feel these so intense feelings again
To be near someone else
In love again
Please love me
Please save me
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Love me
Save me
April 2012
Assigned, for Disillusion
Assigned, for Disillusion
Music and lyrics written by Alexis B.
Relieve spleen with illusive desire
Indecent futility of uncertain future
Hypothetic escape to nothingness
Where all is only appearance
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Through the shade of this illusion
Denying all truth acquired before
At last facing the truth, as she is
A torn superficiality
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Thus illusion disappear – Let foresee what future will be
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An exquisite bitterness, violent – Tearing all
To remind all these promises – So nice and fortuitous
Blowing an unconcern wind – Lead astray our eye from obscure truth
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Losing desire,
Dismissing the so long waited hope
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I let my youth, my vitality – I lose my values
These in which I believed – I lose my will to live
I’m now conscious and realistic – Life is only pain and suffering
And don’t worth to be lived – I believe in nothing yet
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Every night I wish to die
And never wake again
February 2012
Lovely Girl
Lovely girl
Music and lyrics written by Alexis B.
Can you hear me? My lost love
Let me be close to you to breathe your perfume
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Illusive beauty
So evasive presence
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Asphyxiating myself in your magnetic glance
Sire my confusion with these emerald eyes
Through the gentle purity of this moment
My breath between your hands; I belong to you
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Illusive beauty
So evasive presence
______
Tied me against you
To feel your beating
Resonating my soul
As an undulation
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My breath of life
Enlaced in your chimera
Expressing my desires
Steal my life
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Illusive beauty
So evasive presence
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Can you hear me? My stolen love
Answer my call from this hopeless place
Let me be with you to breathe your perfume
Let me be lying with you
January 2012
Rose
Rose
Music and lyrics written by Alexis B.
At length you see the clouds – submerged from the storm
Over the madness – the threat is nearer
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Removed away – Thrown in labyrinthine whirling
Resigned to refuge – outlive the ceaseless slumber
Never gaze on these altered eyes
At length you see – And you weep, unsought
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Twisted voices
Invading your head
More and more
Whispering your name
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The light through this chaos of madness
And anguish hit your sweet face
This grace gives you hope again
Before disappearing away
Away
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Run to escape
Short of breath
Cut by this jerking breathing
Inhaling the doubtful mist
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Out of breath – You fight
Hooked up to your hope
To never forsake
Never forsake
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Run to escape
Short of breath
Cut by this jerking breathing
Inhaling the doubtful mist
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Out of breath – You fight
Hooked up to your hope
But she swallows
She swallowed you
March 2012
Reality Dream
Reality Dream
Music written by Alexis B & Claudia M. Lyrics written by Claudia M.
You are in my mind
Like a lovely smile
You are in my mind
But, when I open my eyes
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All is disappear
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I lose myself in these giant webs
I am these monsters’ prey
Struggling in these nets
Until losing consciousness
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So I see you in my visions
You are the love of my death
I see you in my visions
And I’m afraid to lose you
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You are in my heart
Enjoy my reality dream
You are in my heart
But when I open my eyes
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All starts once more
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I lose myself in these giant webs
I am these monsters’ prey
Struggling in these nets
Until losing consciousness
January 2012
Strain
Strain
Music and lyrics written by Alexis B.
Sweet little angel, made up in black
Wrapped in satiny sweetness
Gathered in furtive embrace,
On this lying flowers, Inhaled by her heat,
Whispered words rise in your chest
Kissed by her captivating voice
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Letting foresee her sweet hands with sharpened nails
Touching imprisoned leg sheathed in black lycra
Caressing the sexyfied lace
Embrace your hidden desires
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Reveal the lane of hidden senses
______
Unfold the doors
Let you submerge, flooded
Unfold the doors
Reveal your strain
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This vibration crossing your chest
Down to the breaking point
Shutting your drifting eyes
And sensually biting your lips
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Your swaying pleasure, your heart beating
Put your hand behind her head
Experience the Sapphic beauty
Embrace your hidden desires
May – June 2012
Phenixia
Phenixia
Music written by Alexis B & Claudia M. Lyrics written by Claudia M.
I crossed the ages
Alone, day after day
Unfolding my wings, smart
Hoping your love from ever
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I‘ve waited for you, here
Upright on my wall
For five hundred years, here
But you never came
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I plunged into the light
Dazzled by your virtual image
Sparkling, shining of colors
Hoping every day for illuminating my heart
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I‘ve waited for you here
Upright on my wall
For five hundred years, here
But you never came
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Fed by your music
These sounds emanating from universe
Dancing every night until dawn
Hoping to find you in my reality
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Fed by your music
These sounds emanating from universe
Dancing every night until dawn
Hoping to find you in my reality
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But I‘ve waited for you here
With my only identity
I only had one redemption
Burning for my eternity
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Burning
For my eternity
April 2011